To my bright-eyed, 21 year-old self:
People tell you that you’re talented and anointed. “You’re gonna change the world,” they say. (You’re never going to stop believing that!) Your life is overflowing with possibility.
But before your 25th birthday, you’ll pour your heart and energy into a beautiful, God-sized dream and that dream will fail.
And it will feel like death.
When the dream dies, you’ll question if you really did hear the voice of God calling you to this dream or if you just imagined it. You’ll wonder about the myriad of things you could have done differently. You’ll worry your life is over. You’ll fear you’re too broken to try anything worthwhile again.
But as your mind spins with a myriad of questions and emotions, please let yourself mourn. Grieve this death. Feel the pain—God can’t comfort the hurts you refuse to feel. Allow yourself to feel this, even if that means you find yourself kneeling on your cold, bathroom floor crying in agony. Your agony is not too big for God. It is safe in His presence. You are safe in His presence.
When the dream dies, you will learn that your tears don’t make you weak. You’ll learn that you are strong and God is stronger.
One dead dream does not mean the death of all dreams. There will be beautiful things waiting for you on the other side of this.
When the dream dies, your life won’t be ending. It will be a new beginning.
Over time, He will resurrect you from the ashes. You will hope again. You will be courageous again. And you will dream again.